The clock is in the cage with me and though it is the only furniture I have I do not recognize its ticking. The straws are yellow and thin and many, but I never touch them but only sit on them. On days when things went well I would stare into the sky and count how many colors I saw in it. These days things are not going well. There are not as many people as there used to be before and I see more colors in the sky.
I remember the children when they came and stayed longer than any adult. They held hands with each other with mouths open and eyes wide looking at me as if I were a goat. But children meant that things were going well and after they have gone I felt very good.
Things are unsuccessful now. I do not know how many days I have been fasting for no one is keeping count. I myself have given up counting. One day I was lying on the straws thinking about the children when the manager came to me and said, “Are you still fasting?”
“Forgive me,” I told him.
“Forgive me,” I told him.
“Of course.”
“I always wanted you to admire my fasting.”
“Certainly we admire it.”
“But you shouldn’t.”
“All right, we don’t admire it. But why shouldn’t we?”
“I can’t help it. I have to fast.”
“Why can’t you help it?”
“Because. I couldn’t find the food I liked.”
I saw in the manager the same look the children always had. And then I closed my eyes and he went away but the clock still ticked and the straw felt hard.
This is my rendering of Kafka's "A Hunger Artist" in Hemingway' s monotony and surface simplicity. I actually like it. I wonder what Kafka or Hemingway might say when they read it. I wonder whether they'll recognize their works imbued in mine.
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